My insanely beautiful life

Okay, I'll simply start with what most people think: I am insane.  Not mental disorder, certifiably insane but my brain simply works differently.  I don't believe in secrets so I have conversations that most people would never consider having because of societal norms and what is considered "taboo."  I live my life from one simple concept and that is to leave this world without a single "what if" moment.

I've been single for over 12 years.  Yes, I've dated here and there but in the end, I was meant to be a loner for this period in my life.  I have had the opportunity to self discover who I am and what I want out of life.  I am still not done, I'm not sure that we can ever be done since we are all constantly evolving.  I, quite frankly, like the person I look at in the mirror every morning and so being single and spending time alone is pretty bearable.. if not incredible enjoyable.   Sure, I have my flaws but I believe that our flaws are what make us unique and are the reason that we truly love one another.  It's easy to love the good qualities but if can take the bad with the good than that is something entirely different.  I have yet found that certain person that loves my flaws and understands the way my mind works.  At this point, I don't even know if I believe in marriage, monogamy, etc... I mean, I think I at least believe in monogamy, however, the lack of commitment on my part to a boyfriend, job, city, etc in the last several years makes me question my beliefs on a subconscious level.

My last decade was spent traveling.  I started following the PBR circuit while in college and decided to see the country by meeting up with long distance friends at events.  I had some crazy experiences and partied my ass off at most of these events.  After college, I decided to take a traveling job so I spent the next 5 years living in 7 different states and moving every 3-9 months.  Now, that was the life and I plan to return back next winter.  I guess you could say, I'm not the type of person to stay put...I have a healthy appetite to learn, experience and see everything that I can.  Last winter, I had a friend that moved to Australia for a year and we stayed in touch.  She was planning a tour of New Zealand and SE Asia so I said "fuck it" and joined her.  We spent three months touring New Zealand via camper van and then Singapore, Indonesia, Vietnam, Laos and Thailand.  It was a whirlwind of ups and downs but an experience that I will never forget.

I tend to "smell the roses" so to speak.  I love to drive off the beaten path and go 40 miles out of my way to see the world's largest coffee pot.  The reason you ask?  Because I don't want to think "what if that was really cool?"  I've seen the largest polar bear, the largest emperor penguin, a graveyard in a traffic circle, the largest thermometer, dark angels, the magic capital of the world, a tree growing from a rock, the Abe Lincoln memorial, Wild Bill's store, the list goes on and on....  Anything that promises sparkly things, taxidermy or creepy factor immediately interests me.  I like dark and twisted beauty.  I love to learn and love history but I only like non-conventional museums like the Sex Museum, Museum of Death and Mob Museum...all of which I've been to at least once.

Laughing is my medicine.  Growing up, I was raised in a dysfunctional family that did not express emotions.  We used humor to deal with our problems and that has carried over into my adulthood.  I keep a journal of all my funny stories, memories and thoughts that I will likely start to post here.  Any situation can be made funny, it's just dependent on your sense of humor and luckily, I find humor in most things..... Follow me, or don't... Whatever tickles your fancy.